my knuckles turned white

Saturday, April 28, 2007




Empty.empty.EMPTY.





i feel empty at this very moment. kosong. something left and it's empty. i feel like i'm totally a different person. as much as i don't like it, i can't change this person. i need to be alive. i need to smile inside but i can't seem to. the worst part is, i don't know whats the problem and if i do, i'm not admitting it. troubled.

Friday, April 27, 2007

ouch!




"My heart aches because I love you. Your heart on the other hand aches because you find me a pain"


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

sigh.
bye bye to the sweet memories that i've saved in this lappy because soon, you guys will all be gone and deleted forever! stupid trojan!!! why must you exist ah??? now i can't even visit LJ! depressing okay.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

by the way, where did you go?
how come i don't see you around anymore?
hmmm...
i'm a bit useless to you now, right?

i said let go!


why did you come back when you made the decision to leave? i seriously don't get it lah. i don't feel like talking to you. it's not because you give me problems, it's just i don't want to talk to you. avoiding someone is my best qualities. yeap, it is. malays would say, macam tak kene gaya gituk. i simply don't feel like talking to you, okay?


i don't know why people keep on saying i'm like the mother figure. i'm so far away from that lah. just because i care too much is it? maybe that's why guys don't like me. ehh maybe thats why that babihutan had had enough of me. dammit! i should stop caring lah!! sighhh...