this is one of those mid year posts. okay i don't know if there are such posts ah so yeah, i'll try to make it a habit. it's always good analyze the year. okay lah what rubbish i'm spitting.
anyhoo, i made this post last year:
Dear 2007,
Be good to me. Give me happiness that I deserve. Bring me back the love I lost. Blow away the hurt and sadness. Make me a better and wiser person. Take away the laziness.
Most importantly, bring me closer to the friends I drifted away. Thank you.
Love, Fazlinda.
I got the happiness that i deserved but it also brought sadness and hurt back. i guess it's a way to balance it. laziness is still there. close friends? i did my part but it's really up to them to come and do their part. sigh. 5 more months till 2008. so fast eh?
I've tried very hard to not let things bother me so much. I've tried to make people stay by me even when the going gets tough. I've tried so hard to make people like and appreciate me. I've tried to give my shoulder, my heart, my ears and myself for you. I've tried to hold your hand and get it through this mess.
I've tried everything and anything I could possibly do. What have you tried to do?
I must stop falling. Stop falling. Stop falling. Stop falling.
thanks for everything raihan. to me it seems over.
so if you want to talk to me, then talk me. else, well, i'll still be here.
i'm very depressed. this stupid project is affecting me one way or another. and my teammates are not even helping me. i MUST learn to say no and enough is enough.
Joss Stone - Tell Me What We're Gonna Do Now feat. Common Yes, we have arrived Joss Stone Uh huh It's for the world world world world Uh
[VERSE] You don't have to make your mind up I just wanna take my time with you yeah If that's alright, it's alright Oh forgive me if I get too shy but maybe you're the reason why, love I'm feelin' butterflies
Somethin' bout the look in your eyes Oooh it just makes me feel so right
[CHORUS] When my mind's void You're my joy You're the dream when I sleep And hey I'm for ya yeah I adore ya you're everything That I need And I love how you love me If I'm made for you you're made for me It's too good to be So tell me what we're gonna do now Yeah tell me what we're gonna do now yeah yeah
[VERSE] Funny how my world keeps spinnin' sometimes you can be so silly You know just how to make me laugh Ooh, your skin is so lovely It moves me when you touch me I know that you got my back It feels so safe when you hold me It's already like you know me
When my mind's void You're my joy You're the dream when I sleep And hey I'm for ya yeah I adore ya you're everything that I need I love how you love me If I'm made for you you're made for me It's too good to be true So tell me what we're gonna do now
[BRIDGE] Oh right now See baby I love how you make me smile Don't leave please stay awhile Let's make this happen I don't care how
[Common] Right now lets stay in the present Can't worry bout tomorrow cause today is a blessin The world in a state of aggression I find calm in you I see my mom in you It's like a feelin' in ya stomach when you want it so bad If we keep keeping it fresh it ain't gonna go bad I've been through the valley of love Rode through the shores of Cali just to find peace of mind Looking to the sky asking for at least a sign Beautiful you came at such a decent time When we combine it's like good food and wine Flavorful yet refined You remind me of the divine So easy Love can be lost and then found, like Stevie I just love having you around you wearing the gown I'm wearing the crown pound for pound we the freshest couple in town
[CHORUS] When my mind's void You're my joy You're my dream And hey I'm for ya yeah I adore ya you're everything And I love how you love me baby I'm made for you oh you're made for me
Ooh tell me what we're gonna do Tell me what we're gonna do Tell me what we're gonna do Tell me what we're gonna do
i wish i could tell you this so that you'd know how i feel about you.
i always wished i could dig a hole and hibernate. no no no, it's not that i'm tired and want to sleep for 6 months. but more like, when you're asleep, you don't feel lonely. you would have this comfort with you always.
i can smell you. i don't know why but i'm addicted to you. geez. get out of my life already. go away.
i know i'm not for you. you don't need to say it. i can actually see it.
maybe i'm wrong but that's when you're suppose to prove it to me. and i'm waiting. waiting and waiting and waiting....
maybe i asked because i don't know what to do. you see, it's easy to get angry and mad if you don't reply my message or you don't message me or call me or change our plans at the last minute because we're in a relationship.
but being neither here nor there is a bit of a here-or-there situation. you see, i can't be angry at you just cause you don't message me or don't go out with me. i just can't. who am i to be angry at you? or to control you? i don't have the right. so as much as i miss you or yearn for you, i just have to wait. wait for you to come and meet me. or wait for you to be free and have time for me.
i'm simply nothing to you. you are welcome to go anywhere you're pleased. and it sucks okay. it just sucks.
and other then that, if a guy is a bit pushy it only means he cares. but if a girl is pushy, it means we're a nag. that's why it hurts.
i asked you yesterday so what are we and i saw that confused expression you had. yeah i know it was out of the blue. i've never been here nor there. so yeah. i'm equally confused as you too.
let time bring us to where we want it to be kay. :) still i'm missing your sweet smell.
last wed was a mixed feeling night. i was so hyped up because finally after so long, i could go clubbing without worrying about home. we went to MOS to get our chop and bank our bags. then we hiked up to phunkbar to get free drinks. i guess we were very early. haha. afterwards tried our luck at dbl O but wednesdays are for 21 and above (stupid rule). we headed back to MOS at around 11. SMOOVE was a tad bit boring at first so we went to Main Arena. IT WAS SUPER BORING LAH! they played 90's hits siol. haha. yeah. then me and kam headed back to SMOOVE and then it went downhill.
a stupid bangla who acted drunk touched kamisah not once but twice! she got so pissed that we complaint to the bouncer. the bouncer wanted to find him but by then, the club was jam packed. i mean we can't even move in the cage. we thought our hope of finding him was like finding a needle in a hay stack. however when we headed back, we saw him. i wanted to take a picture of him but failed attempt! when i was following him, we walked pass this group of chinese people and they were quite angry. apparently, he touched 2 more girls. kam received a called from one of the bouncer and they caught him. stupid guy.
after that, SMOOVE was ridiculously pack and i couldn't move! we almost gave up but met him and his friends. we lepaked near the VIP section and saw Hady and Sheikh Haikal. danced with him. drank. smoked. till 5 am. living the life huh. below are the pics.
so the holiday is here and guess what? the lazy spell has been cast on me since last Friday. urgh. you have to practically drag me out of my house. unless i'm working that is.
my plan today was to head down to Sentosa and sun bathe alone with an ice cooled lemon tea or ahem ahem. read a book or just sleep under the sun, on the sand and enjoy the sea breeze. BUT because of this laziness of mine, i'm here on the sofa facing my laptop and the tv and won't move an inch.
i wish somebody would pick me up and drag me out of this hole i'm in. heh.
on a lighter note, the parents are away! yes yes YES! and the house is empty (well, it has always been at this point of time).
*creeps into my closet and takes out my dancing shoes!
