allow me to strip naked and be vulnerable for a second.
this family issue is driving me insane. i cannot face you, mom. why are you silently torturing me? i cannot be myself when i am with you. you're acting if every single piece of that argument was my fault. what i did was nothing compared to what you've put me through emotionally. you have every right to give me a piece of you mind but what about me? have i no right to be angry? have i no say in anything? and why is every single thing my fault?

today i feel weak.
today i feel defeated.
today i am the black sheep of the family.
and today, i realize, i'm nothing in your eyes.

thanks mom.