Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do


perfect song for him, a year and 6 months ago. or to those who were almost.


my heart aches now because i want a boyfriend to laugh and hold this cold hands.
please grant me this wish, please.

i don't know where to find him. i've been waiting and wasting my time. i know i know i sound soo sappy and blahh but yeah. at this moment in time (3:03 am, 19th Jan 09) i feel this really really heavy feeling, like as if i want to cry but i don't know why, in my heart and all i'm asking for is a boyfriend.

i know he is out there somewhere. i just feel that it's time he shows his face.

allow me to strip naked and be vulnerable for a second.
this family issue is driving me insane. i cannot face you, mom. why are you silently torturing me? i cannot be myself when i am with you. you're acting if every single piece of that argument was my fault. what i did was nothing compared to what you've put me through emotionally. you have every right to give me a piece of you mind but what about me? have i no right to be angry? have i no say in anything? and why is every single thing my fault?

today i feel weak.
today i feel defeated.
today i am the black sheep of the family.
and today, i realize, i'm nothing in your eyes.

thanks mom.

Important note

Dear self,

Remember to stop being naive and be too nice to people that are unkind to you. So stop here and be mean to people, or at least stand on your ground. Also, stop being too mushy when you know there isn't anything between the two of you. Stop falling down hard. Stop it. You are not strong enough to hold these feelings so why bother trying?

You'll survive this.

Love,
Yourself.

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you




not asking a lot.
just give me a chance.
so i can show you what you're going to miss out,
if you don't pick me.

zaty's birthday celebration

I was their driver for the day

Pretty clouds horrr

Mine and Sue's present to her and credit to Res for the design.. it was PRETTY!

The three of us.. I look like their mother

These were the only thing that was left in our wallets like seriously. We went all the way to Rochor Road to have 2 bowls of beancurd.

The new Lasalle was Awesome we just had to make a stop and take pictures on the green patches. And i had to pay $3 for parking -_-

Zaty was having her blur sotong moment. Hurhurhur.

All in all it was a nice birthday celebration for Zaty. Everything went to plan except for the time where me and Zaty was lost because we couldn't find Sue's workplace. I think I made at least 5 or 6 U turns okay. And the North Indian food were nice. I was so freaking full ah. Heeeee.. More outings like this!!! :)

EH, I CAN DRIVE ALREADY...LAH!